wad to do..emo

isit cos i haven't been praying hard n living my life well enough tt the Lord is putting me thru this disappointment(i suppose).

not being able to be the 1st to visit u, i'm so sad le..letting me noe tt he'll be gg alone to find u during june is even more hurting to think that u'll be touched arh..cared for eva more during tt period..n moreover, loved.

yes i'm being emo now..even ur bro could tell i misses u dearly, but to think back..u even asked if i reali am missing u..

u nv once talked to me, only when i'm down n stuff i guess..

i noe u place me as impt, or mayb only during situations..but at least i am/was more impt than him..

lyk i've told u..in a way i was overjoyed..but felt sry to him..

can u pls not let it be lyk wad ur tudi told me..tt it was out of pity frm i dunno when!.. cos i noe frm the start..it wasn't!

i dun wanna see u havin another person next to u 1 aft another 1..seeing u sad too..or happi tt u'll b meetin some1..for a date or wad so eva de..i dun wan!

i'm being lyk a kid now..jealousy is all over me..a nuisance?..rah..

today's jus a crying day..after i read the comment..jus suddenly burst into tears n told u..i oso dunno y..seein his fb post..tt 1 i noe y..as i'm typin tis..i'm oso crying away..i'm jus too emotional when it deals with ppl..especially u..i jus can't control..